It has been a long time since I have posted something. I started a blog to keep friends and family updated about my experiences in China...until I got to China and realized that google is banned from the country. That experience may have to written into a book.
To my current situation I thought about keeping up with it while in the Dominican Republic...and it got away from me. So I guess it is better later then never.
I thought my posts would be about amazing travel experiences, networking, food, people, and other experiences. I never would of thought my posts would be about the reality so many visiting foreigners don't see while in another country. People really don't know what it is really like until they are fully emerged into a new country with no friends, language barrier, no support system, and everything being new all over again.
BUT...this is the greatest desire in my heart, to be aboard experiencing different cultures with first hand experience. A quote that I have come to live by, "To travel is to discover that everyone is wrong about other countries." Aldous Huxley. Somethings you simply cannot read in a book, google search, or obtain from others. You personally have to be there to experience those feelings, culture shock, wonder, and mystery. Only then will you truly be enlighten to things outside of your comfort zone.
Even though I am in a better place now compared to China. I still feel like I am walking around a mountain needing to learn the same thing or something different. So, all I can say is, "Here I am Lord, What do you want me to teach me?" All that is within me I want to be like Isaiah he heard God asking, "Whom should I send as a messenger to this people? Who will go for us? I said, "Here I am. Send me." (Isaiah 6:8 NLT)
I have wanted to be aboard for so long and when God finally released me to go after trying and then giving up because I felt stuck and stagnant in Huntington, WV. Now I realize it was a season of preparation and would not be nearly strong enough to handled what I have had to to deal with in China and currently in the Dominican Republic.
During my season of preparation I fasted and prayed like never before on the Word of God. Standing firm that I was going to work aboard and applying for countless jobs....with job interviews going well. Yet, nothing ever worked out and resulted in me feeling like I was not good enough to get a job even though I have the education and teaching experience. So I stopped applying for jobs and planned on staying where I was and not going aboard.Until one church Sunday my Bishop prophesied to me that I am getting ready to leave to go some where. I just looked at her like "I stopped applying for overseas jobs and looking to settle her at my current job." Fast forward several months later I got the desire to apply for overseas jobs again. So I called my Bishop and told her, "You were right!, I am leaving to go to China." And I left from Dulles International Airport on May 31, 2015
The Beginning of the Chinese Experience......
Wednesday, May 10, 2017
Thursday, May 9, 2013
The Just Shall Live By Faith
I have been seeking God for various things in my life. Who isn' right? God I need this, that, this, that, and this. Some people only talk to God when they need something from Him. However, with my relationship with my savior Jesus Christ, I seek the Lord because my life isn't my own to Him I belong. As a Christian I cannot just make decisions, choices, lifestyle changes, career changes, or just move because I have been birthed to complete the work of my Father in Heaven. So I MUST seek him regarding the desires of my heart.
I am not talking about every Christian's relationship with Christ, I am talking about my own. I have chosen to do the work of the Father in building His kingdom in heaven. So if God is not in it, says "no", or I have to wait, then I would rather be in His will then His permissive will. When you are in the permissive will of the Father you are still blessed, but it is not the full blessing. 1 Samuel 15:22 states that, "...to obey is better than sacrifice." Think about it. As I mature in grow in God, I thank Him for unanswered prayers. Especially when I reflect back on the mindset that I was in asking God for certain things.
Fast forward to today, May 9, 2013, Huntington, WV. I trust God, but have been wishy/washy concerning several things that I am believing Him for. Of course during this time of waiting in expectation several questions have crossed my mind more than once. Do I really believe the word of God? When will it come to past? Have I missed it? Many people both of the household of faith and outside tend to question your relationship with God because of these types of questions. I am human and that side does like to cause doubt, fear, and anxiety. As a result, I have to rebuke my flesh daily in order to have a clear mind and heart. Just because I am saved does mean that I don't go through battles myself. People tend to think that as Christians we have it easy....YEAH RIGHT!!! We do not have it easy, it just our resource (God) walks with us and enables us to endure until the end.
I have done all that I know to do in order to be in a position for God to hear me. The Bible says that certain things only come out by fasting and praying (Mark 9:29). Even after our fast has ended we expect a quick moving of God. What if God gave you all your hearts desire but you were unable to maintain it? For example, if God blessed you with a new car but you did not have the finances to make sure you kept gas in it, oil changes, and other things. Your car would get reposed, you might have to sale it, or not use it. We have to be in a position to maintain the blessings God has in store for us.
When you look to the left, right, forward, backward, and wonder how am I gonna make it through this anyhow?
Six key words: "The Just Shall Live By Faith." (Roman 1:17)
Keep in mind that if you diligently seek God he will hear you and that you only need to have faith as small as a mustard seed. There are numerous people in the Bible that were waiting on God for various things. Delay is not denial. All things work for the good to those who are called according to God's purpose. Stay encouraged.
I am not talking about every Christian's relationship with Christ, I am talking about my own. I have chosen to do the work of the Father in building His kingdom in heaven. So if God is not in it, says "no", or I have to wait, then I would rather be in His will then His permissive will. When you are in the permissive will of the Father you are still blessed, but it is not the full blessing. 1 Samuel 15:22 states that, "...to obey is better than sacrifice." Think about it. As I mature in grow in God, I thank Him for unanswered prayers. Especially when I reflect back on the mindset that I was in asking God for certain things.
Fast forward to today, May 9, 2013, Huntington, WV. I trust God, but have been wishy/washy concerning several things that I am believing Him for. Of course during this time of waiting in expectation several questions have crossed my mind more than once. Do I really believe the word of God? When will it come to past? Have I missed it? Many people both of the household of faith and outside tend to question your relationship with God because of these types of questions. I am human and that side does like to cause doubt, fear, and anxiety. As a result, I have to rebuke my flesh daily in order to have a clear mind and heart. Just because I am saved does mean that I don't go through battles myself. People tend to think that as Christians we have it easy....YEAH RIGHT!!! We do not have it easy, it just our resource (God) walks with us and enables us to endure until the end.
I have done all that I know to do in order to be in a position for God to hear me. The Bible says that certain things only come out by fasting and praying (Mark 9:29). Even after our fast has ended we expect a quick moving of God. What if God gave you all your hearts desire but you were unable to maintain it? For example, if God blessed you with a new car but you did not have the finances to make sure you kept gas in it, oil changes, and other things. Your car would get reposed, you might have to sale it, or not use it. We have to be in a position to maintain the blessings God has in store for us.
When you look to the left, right, forward, backward, and wonder how am I gonna make it through this anyhow?
Six key words: "The Just Shall Live By Faith." (Roman 1:17)
Keep in mind that if you diligently seek God he will hear you and that you only need to have faith as small as a mustard seed. There are numerous people in the Bible that were waiting on God for various things. Delay is not denial. All things work for the good to those who are called according to God's purpose. Stay encouraged.
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